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Diagnosed with depression 16 years ago, I lost the life I once knew, but in the process re-created a better me. I am alive and functional today because of my dog, my treatment team, my sobriety, and my willingness to re-create myself within the confines of this illness. I hate the illness, but I'm grateful for the person I've become and the opportunities I've seized because of it. I hope writing a depression blog will reduce stigma and improve the understanding and treatment of people with mental illness. All original content copyright to me: etta. Enjoy your visit!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

intrusive thoughts II

just now.
It happened Just
now.
poured Out one
but suddenly
Wanted them All.
then there they were.
All.
in My hand.
so Small
so powerful.
So dangerous.
I didn't do it,
but the Thought
It was there.
Suddenly.
out of the blue
Disturbing
distressing
Confusing.
Disturbing.

scary.
what if?

1 comment:

Moose withthoughtslikemine said...

The thought may have been there, BUT YOU DIDN'T DO IT.



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