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Diagnosed with depression 17 years ago, I lost the life I once knew, but in the process re-created a better me. I am alive and functional today because of my dog, my treatment team, my sobriety, and my willingness to re-create myself within the confines of this illness. I hate the illness, but I'm grateful for the person I've become and the opportunities I've seized because of it. I hope writing a depression blog will reduce stigma and improve the understanding and treatment of people with mental illness. All original content copyright to me: etta. Enjoy your visit!

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

failure

Feeling failure.
Reeling from failure.
Depression twists facts
into fiction.
Failure first.
Sometimes only failure.
No accomplishments
allowed
in.

No satisfaction in a job well done.
Failure first.
No job ever well done
enough.

Expectations
don't change automatically.
Only constant vigilence
beats the failure
back.

Constant,
wearying vigilence
just
to allow
satisfaction
in.

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