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Thursday, May 14, 2009

Uh-Oh, another labral tear?


I think I re-tore my right hip labrum. I was moving a patient at work last week when my right hip popped. Very familiar pain and aching in my groin and thigh followed. I prayed and prayed and prayed it wouldn't be true, but I'm afraid my prayers went unanswered. If torn, this would be the third time. Two surgeries had it fixed, until last week, but I'm not sure three is an option.

I'm not sure I want another surgery even if it is an option. It took about 18 months to fully recover from the last one. In fact, it's only been in the last 3-6 months that I've felt back at full strength. Unfortunately, the only way to thwart the pain is to resect the tear--i.e. surgery. So if it is an option, I'll have to take it. If it's not an option, I'll be in almost constant discomfort and sometimes pain. There is nothing positive here. Both possibilities feel ominous and unwanted.

Sitting here worrying about these potential outcomes is not helpful. It doesn't change a thing. I'd like to go back in time and change how I moved a week ago. Simply repositioning my foot would have avoided the re-injury. I know that now. I wasn't thinking about it then. There is nothing I can do to change my current reality, and that's difficult to accept. I'm frustrated and disappointed. Feeling defeated... I don't want to be sitting here in pain. I don't want to have to deal with this all over again. But I am, and I do. And I'm working on accepting it.

20 comments:

SK said...

Etta, I'm so sorry to hear this and hope that the situation resolves soon and favorably.

My best wishes,

-SK

Peter said...

I came across this post on a google search, as I think I just reinjured my surgically repaired labrum. It is incredibly disheartening and I'm trying to muster the positive energy to go thru the surgery again if need be. I have an mri scheduled next week which will be definitive. Hang in there.

mg said...

I was also doing a google search and found you, but almost a year later. HOW are YOU now?? I can scroll through your other posts just thought I'd comment right now.

Jim Hall said...

why did it take 18 months to fully recover from the last fix? I am about to do my first and it's truly distrurbing to hear that it can take that long. Most estimates say it's like a 3-4 month recovery process.

etta said...

Jim--
I don't know why it took that long, perhaps because it was my second repair and it involved shaving part of the bone--unlike the first repair which was a simple arthroscopic procedure that I recovered from within a few months. Shaving the bone meant I had to be non-weightbearing for 4 weeks and couldn't run for another 3-4 months. If this is your first repair, my best advice is to remain diligent and not tear it again!

Kyllie said...

I'm 1 week post op and I a accidentally put weight on the foot I wasn't supposed to. I triped and instinctually caught myself. How do I know if I accidentally retore my hip or ruined the work done during surgery?

Unknown said...

I have had both hips done as I injured both in a fall where I rolled down a hill. The left hip felt great until I started driving and went to get out at the truck and didn't think about what I was doing and I beleive I retoar it but every one tells me that it's impossible to do. The right hip is doing great so I just have to address the left again. I really tore them as I tore them over 180 degrees. Hopefully everyone has the luck I have bade with my right hip then you will not have any problems.

Anonymous said...

I have labral tears in both hips from chronic sporting injuries. Had the right one repaired about 18 months ago, but has never felt quite right since. I think I may have re torn it in the past few weeks as the right hip pain has gotten a lot worse, radiating down the thigh again. Am getting another MRI next week, and am so terrified of going back with this process again. I'm only 24 and have spent the last 3 years with hip and back pain. Trying to stay positive about everything but it is a challenge.

Chris G said...

I had really bad labral tears and FAI and I was a former D1 athlete. The right was done in October which included a 5 anchor tear, shaving, and the dreaded microfracture.

Had the left done in February which was a 4 anchor tear and shaving. I injured the right about 4 weeks post op just walking up the stairs. Brought the knee up to take a step and felt a sudden, sharp pull in the groin. I've been having pain in the groin ever since. I had a regular MRI which showed some edema (could be from surgery) and they really couldn't tell about the labrum because of the surgery...My PT keeps telling me she thinks its tight adductors, but to me it feels a little deeper and whenever I take a step I can feel something rub against my groin as I push off the ball of my foot to step through. Ortho said illiospoa, but PT said no because I'd be having pain in my abs as well. I was able to do all the PT exercises and even did ladder drills and jumps. It's walking or side stepping where I can feel rubbing and pain. Also, butterfly stretch

I'm almost 5 months post op. Any idea?

etta said...

@ Chris: I am not an expert, but I did pop the minor quad tendon shortly after my last procedure. I was lifting my foot off the gas and onto the brake when it audibly popped. I had pain and bruising immediately, and the pain lasted for, well, I still feel it sometimes with straight leg hip flexion. My last surgery was October, 2014.
I would definitely call your surgeon. That's my best advice. Hope you heal quickly and well.

Chris G said...

Thank etta. When I saw the ortho he said illiospoas right away. Reccomended cortisone and more PT. The assistant gave me the cortisone shot in the rectus femorus so wrong spot. All it did was numb that outside muscle all the way down to my knee....He wants to do a 3 month follow up which would be early August. I'm getting my shoulder scoped on Thursday in the meantime so maybe the rest will help?

It's just so frustrating after going through the microfracture procedure on the right only to have problems on the left...On top of it all my knee has been messed up since per-surgeries and my wrists are all screwed up from so many weeks of crutches because of the MF...

Gurpal said...

Hi,
I am also one week post op, everything was going fine the labral pain seemed to have gone and I had post op pain. 4 days after the op I was struggling to sleep, my legs were really restless, I jerked/ slid my operated leg in towards the other, I felt a pop in hip. The last two days the groin pain has returned, at rest, with movement- the pain has become sharp in my hip too. I'm worried I may have retorn the labrum.. My surgeon has told me not to worry as it could be scar tissue and suggested even if one anchor popped off I would be fine. Everyone seems to have experienced similar things.. Any ideas?

Chandler Gordon said...

Just confirmed I have tore my left hip labrum for the third time! I am only 27 too! Gotta keep pushing tho... :( FAI has literally ruined my social life. Have lost 30 lbs since my first surgery in May of 2015. Thanks Florida Orthapedic for just taking the hard earned cash straight out of my hand... smh. I have faith tho!

Volleyk said...

Had a 2 anchor hip labral repair and bone shaved down in November, 2012. Took a good 6 months at least before I was getting closer to "normal." Had been doing great overall but have heard some popping in my hip when doing things like getting out of the car, up from a seated position, etc. It wasn't painful, so I didn't think much about it. Woke up yesterday with hip pain, which worsened throughout the day and became extremely painful. Having an arthrogram a week from today and am on a steroid pack now. Hoping it is just a flare up. I am wondering though, if many of you have issues after a left hip labrum repair when getting out of the drivers seat of a car? Now I literally have to lift my leg in and out of the car.

Anonymous said...

Volleyk, Yes, left hip repair and drivers side is currently my issue. I am 4 weeks post op with a repair and bone shaved down and I accidentally got in the car like a normal person, ie operative leg holding all the weight and twisting on it. I had a loud pop and immediate pain. The pain faded but now I have started to have the same pre-surgery pain that causes my leg to buckle. Going in on Monday for the Dr to look at it. But you should always turn, sit in the seat and then rotate both legs in when getting into the drivers side with a left hip issue. I am praying that I didn't re-injure and that having the same pre-operative pain is a normal part of recovery.

Michelle Satola said...

Hi Everyone, I have had bilateral hip scopes 2x on my left and 2x on my right hip. The first surgeon never performed an osteoplasty to correct the problem. My second surgeon did. He shaved the bone and repaired the labrum. I have been fine since 2012. Great recovery, not problems. I have been SO very careful. I gave up running and only do low impact work outs because I was afraid of injuring my hip. However, 2 months ago I was adjusted by a chiropractor. Since that... awful but pain, hip pain, can't sleep, can't walk, can't work out. SAME SYMPTOMS as I was before. I knew I needed an MRI when the pain lasted more then weeks. sure enough, I have a tear AGAIN in my left hip. I do not know if this is a NEW tear or was a previous one that was already anchored. He really won't know until he gets in. I received a cortisone shot to "hold me over" But I know tears won't repair themselves. And living with this pain is just not an option me as I am 25 and live a very active lifestyle. The last thing I want to do is go through another surgery, but I either suffer...or just get it done and be happy again. Any advice would be greatly appreciated!.

Volleyk said...

Hoping for positive news for you and reduction of pain. I am 44 and very active (Physical Education teacher, nearly year-round coach, have two active dogs, and enjoy doing a variety of sports and activities) & the reality of me reducing my lifestyle is unimaginable. Not only from a work perspective, but because being active is a major part of who I am!

It is so frustrating to know if the "simple" or dare I say, "normal" movements can re-injure us. Being mindfully aware is a constant focus, but in a continuously active job environment, it is so easy to momentarily forget, until.. oh no, what was that pop/pain? Feeling like there has to be a light at the end of the tunnel, but it always seems to be a darn train!

Best wishes to all for optimal healing and reduction of pain.

Michelle Satola said...

Thank You, I will be getting surgery. I am curious to see if this tear is the same that was anchored or if this is a new one. I noticed you mentioned you had an arthrogram. How did it go?

Zain said...

Hey Michelle. I'm almost 3 weeks post-op from a left hip labral repair. I'm afraid I re-injured my labrum on the same day of surgery.. When I got to my house after surgery, I went up the first step on the way to my front door the wrong way with my crutches and it caused severe pain in my groin. At this point I've been having the same kinds of pre-surgery pain and my surgeon told me that most of the time his patients tell him the opposite after surgery.. This sucks I'm only 19 and was already planning to repair my other side (which I injured literally 3 weeks before my left hip surgery by just strecthing) next year. Did you ever get your surgery done? Did it end up being the same tear that was anchored?

Anonymous said...

I've recently found out I've retorn my right hip labrum for the 3rd time and my left hip for the 2nd time. My pain is so bad this time around the only I can get relief is to lay flat on my back. I seen the surgeon after my bilateral hip MRI, he said it's time to replace your hips. I'm only 39.. I just want to be active again. I've gained 15 lbs in 8 weeks not be able to ambulate let alone work out. This is becoming so depressing. I hate this!! I'm still playing the waiting game.. the surgeon that worked on me before doesn't do hip replacements so I have to wait 2 more weeks to see his partner.. then of course I will have to play the insurance game.
Ugghhh I just want to be active.. walking with out pain would be fantastic!!



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