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Diagnosed with depression 18 years ago, I lost the life I once knew, but in the process re-created a better me. I am alive and functional today because of my dog, my treatment team, my sobriety, and my willingness to re-create myself within the confines of this illness. I hate the illness, but I'm grateful for the person I've become and the opportunities I've seized because of it. I hope writing a depression blog will reduce stigma and improve the understanding and treatment of people with mental illness. All original content copyright to me: etta. Enjoy your visit!

Monday, August 20, 2018

Concerned about tired

I don't have much to say tonight. I'm tired. I'm just plain tired, and I'm getting a bit concerned about that. I'm sure you don't want to read a post about how tired I am, but fatigue which doesn't seem to abate despite extra sleep concerns me. It's usually a symptom when I'm not doing so hot. And it's sometimes one of the first symptoms that shows up, even before my mood dips, hence my concern.

When I'm tired, everything feels more difficult. Work is busy, but it's not crazy, and still it seems tough to keep up. I want to stay home just about every day. Taking care of my house might be a little busier, as I just painted my shutters and front door, but again, it maybe shouldn't feel as daunting as it does. So far I'm keeping up, but the energy expenditure seems out of line with the chores. It takes more effort to get things done. Even packing tomorrow's lunch tonight felt like a really big task. I don't like that.

I'm feeling uneasy with feeling so tired. My history of rapid descents is the reason for my dis-ease. I've let my doctor know. We're keeping in touch. In the meantime I'm trying not to panic. Maybe I'm too concerned. After all, I'm just tired. Yet I don't like feeling this kind of tired. This kind of tired scares me, and I don't like being scared either. Hoping I'll feel energized soon.


Anonymous said...

Oh wow, this was such a powerful piece. I can most certainly relate to a lot of your experiences. This year my depression and anxiety symptoms (originally rooted in childhood trauma) hit an all-time high after the loss of a loved one and the end of a 7-year relationship. I didn't think I would ever feel better. I am a therapist, but I too need someone to help remind me about challenging my negative thoughts with positives and trying all of the holistic methods I know and tell others to Recently I decided to try micronutrients, as antidepressants and antianxiety medications never gave me the relief I sought, and the side effects were dangerous and worse than my initial symptoms. Anyway, I've only been taking them for a few days, and I already feel amazing. I mean, I haven't felt this happy since I was a very young child playing on the beach at my grandmother's house in the summertime. It's pretty awesome. I just wanted to share this with everyone in the hopes of it helping someone else feel as good as I do right now after feeling so sad for so long. <3

Here’s a link to some of the research I’ve come across all on one site for those of you who are interested in giving micronutrients a try for treating symptoms of depression and anxiety:

Also, if anyone is interested in trying the micronutrients I’ve been taking, you can find them here:

Number One Fan said...

I have come to realize how important sleep and rest are to my mood and overall sense of well-being. I totally sympathize with you.