I sent a note to my doctor yesterday. I'm a little bit worried. Something feels off. I'm not quite right, hence the note to my doc. Nothing to do but wait and see, really, but I just wanted her to know. Over the last several days, I've periodically had that sickening feeling I sometimes get prior to a depression episode. I hope it's just a little dip, or even better, nothing at all.
It's been awhile since I've had that sickening feeling. It scares me, but I'm trying not to focus on it. I'm trying to feel it and let it pass. I can't control whether depression descends or not. I can only control what I'm doing to keep it at bay. So I'll keep taking my meds, working, exercising, going to meetings, and seeing my doctor. That's where my focus needs to be. Worrying won't help. Acting will. I have to remember that.
Depression Marathon Blog
- etta
- Diagnosed with depression 18 years ago, I lost the life I once knew, but in the process re-created a better me. I am alive and functional today because of my dog, my treatment team, my sobriety, and my willingness to re-create myself within the confines of this illness. I hate the illness, but I'm grateful for the person I've become and the opportunities I've seized because of it. I hope writing a depression blog will reduce stigma and improve the understanding and treatment of people with mental illness. All original content copyright to me: etta. Enjoy your visit!
Thursday, February 14, 2019
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2 comments:
I wish you well. I don't get anything that I have recognized as a precursor to a depressive episode, other than feelings of defeat and bleakness, but I imagine it's like the glow people with migraines often report before their episodes. That would seem like both a beneficial and a frightening thing to experience.
There are a lot of us out here on your team (or in the stands cheering you on). I wish I could lift thing from your shoulders, even if just a little.
I love you Etta. You showed genuine concern for me that day. Thank you.
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