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Diagnosed with depression 19 years ago, I lost the life I once knew, but in the process re-created a better me. I am alive and functional today because of my dog, my treatment team, my sobriety, and my willingness to re-create myself within the confines of this illness. I hate the illness, but I'm grateful for the person I've become and the opportunities I've seized because of it. I hope writing a depression blog will reduce stigma and improve the understanding and treatment of people with mental illness. All original content copyright to me: etta. Enjoy your visit!

Saturday, February 15, 2020

Long days

I apologize. I don't have much to say. My days are incredibly long and dull as I recover from my labral reconstruction. I'm struggling to keep my mood in check. I go to the gym almost daily even though I'm still very limited on what I am allowed to do. At least it gets me out of the house and around other people for a bit. Unfortunately, as was the case today, sometimes being around other people without ever saying a word, or having a word said to me, is more isolating than staying at home. That's tough. It's great to have (only) a couple of very close friends, but right now I wish I had just a couple more.

I did get some good news this week. After several lab tests, some x-rays, and a couple of MRIs, I met with the neurologist who told me everything looked good. There was nothing of concern in any of the studies and her hands-on evaluation revealed no issues. As she pointed out, we may never know why I had sudden onset foot drop, numbness and tingling in my right leg after my surgery, but there is no scary underlying disease or condition. That was what I expected, but it was relieving to hear it confirmed.

And that's about it. I'm off to ice my hip and binge watch yet another series about the mafia on Amazon Prime. Yes, I find the history of the mob fascinating. I've also watched almost everything available on the topics of  Mt. Everest, running, and Antarctica. If I don't get on my feet soon I may have to develop other interests! That's all for now. Carry on, my friends.


Paul Lamb said...

I'm glad you've turned a corner. Just consider it training for a marathon -- there are no shortcuts, not if you want to finish well.

etta said...

@ Paul: True. I'm trying to do just that. But patience doesn't come easily when it comes to injuries. BTW your comment was the 1000th comment I've received on this blog! Seems fitting that it would come from you. Thanks for your continued support.

Paul Lamb said...

Wow! Number 1000!

On my old (long gone) blog I sent one of my round rocks to my 1,000th commenter. If you would like a round rock or two, lemme know.

etta said...

@ Paul: I apologize, I don't know what one of your "round rocks" is, but I love rocks! So yes, please, send me what you've got. I collect rocks from everywhere I visit...including Mt Everest Basecamp (shhh...don't tell!).

Paul Lamb said...

(shhh! don't tell anyone, but I don't have an address for you.)

etta said...

@ Paul: Send me a comment with your email. I won't publish your comment, of course.