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Diagnosed with depression 19 years ago, I lost the life I once knew, but in the process re-created a better me. I am alive and functional today because of my dog, my treatment team, my sobriety, and my willingness to re-create myself within the confines of this illness. I hate the illness, but I'm grateful for the person I've become and the opportunities I've seized because of it. I hope writing a depression blog will reduce stigma and improve the understanding and treatment of people with mental illness. All original content copyright to me: etta. Enjoy your visit!

Monday, February 3, 2020

Recovery Road

I'm now into my 10th day of right hip labral reconstruction post-op recovery, and I can say this for certain; recovery is exhausting! Damn, I'm tired. Living alone, doing everything on one leg and with extremely limited use of both hands (since they're supporting me on my crutches) is downright exhausting. Despite the fatigue I'm learning a lot, and I'm hoping I adapt and things get easier over the next few weeks.

I learned really quickly that planning and patience were the name of the game. Everything I do has to be thought out in advance and takes 2 to 4 times longer than usual, if it can be done at all. Simple things like getting the coffee creamer from refrigerator to counter or the jelly from fridge to toaster, a span of floor space only 6 feet wide, boggled my brain the first time I attempted them. Showering, getting dressed and moving about in public were other puzzles I had to solve. It's amazing what I took for granted prior to this.

Each extra step I am forced to take, each activity completed requires using my body in different ways than I've used it before. Left leg balance work, trunk range of motion and stability, and stretching way outside my base of support are now constant endeavors. I've become a bit of a contortionist, and in doing so I've developed stiffness, soreness, and discomfort in a multitude of muscles not at all associated with my repaired hip!

As for my hip, it seems to be healing. I'm having very little trouble with pain at this point, which is nice. I'm doing my prescribed basic exercises several times per day. Avoiding the hip motions and positions I'm supposed to avoid in this early stage of healing has been a bit stressful, though. Again, doing so sounded easy pre-op but in reality requires planning, patience, and constant vigilance. I really don't want to screw this up.

I'm still awaiting follow-up with neurology regarding the foot drop episode I wrote about in my last post. I did see my regular MD on Friday. She ordered a brain MRI, which thankfully came back normal, and scheduled a lumbar MRI for later this week. No answers yet regarding what actually caused the concerning symptoms, but we're likely ruling out some big scary things along the way. I'm okay with that.

Well, I've been up for a few hours now and it's already time for a nap! Like I said, this healing process has been exhausting. Nevertheless, I feel like I'm on the road to recovery. It's going to be a long road, I know, but I'm pleased with my progress thus far. One day I'll be running again. That will be a great day.

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